+Lost and Uncertain+

A poem that I wrote yesterday, capturing some of my feelings lately.

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I thought I knew what you want me to do,
I thought I knew who you want me to be.
Why do I now feel so confused?
Why won't you make it clear to me?

Is this where I'm headed? The road to nowhere?
Just stumbling around like a fool?
Why does it feel like you don't even care?
Why won't you tell me what to do?

I live my life for you every day,
I thought you cared for me, too.
So why are you letting me feel this way?
I want to know what to do.

So many decisions are coming up fast,
and it feels like I'm at a loss.
I don't know exactly how long I can last,
or what the decisions will cost.

It was all so clear before, don't you see,
and I don't know what has changed,
but suddenly you're not here with me,
and these things you just won't explain.

Why make things appear the way that they are
if they aren't going to be that at all?
I knew what I was doing, I made it this far,
but now all of those hopes and dreams fall.

You better work fast if you know what you'll do,
I'm giving you all of my being.
But I'll tell you right now, I don't understand you,
and I cannot see what you're seeing.

The future's uncertain, I feel like I'll drown!
I'm tired of worry and strife!
Don't get my hopes up if you'll just let me down.
Please, just take control of this life.